...soar like a butterfly...

* LifE *

2006-11-24T19:17:00.000-08:00

I've not been blogging for long time... hehe...
Life is stressful and it's up to you how to cheer yourselves.. I'm still having many question marks in my head... Don't know what to decide... But one thing is decided; life should move on regardless how weak i'm, life must keep going for the sake of my parents(especially) and people ard me... I've wanted to take leave so much but work is piling... Sometimes, i'm thinking how i can be in this industry where i've no idea about before getting into poly... All that happened in my life now is not my initial planning when i was in secondary sch... But that's the fact of life... You planned but facts are different...

Being happy is when people around you are happy... That's what i'm living on now... I can't find my own happiness and i don't know where it lies on... But as long as people around me are happy, i think that's my happiness...

My Ranting

2006-08-30T06:00:00.000-07:00

It seems that my life is bold n empty... Since i'm back from India, i felt less enjoyment in my life... Sometimes, i asked myself if my decision going to India affected my future such as my relationship with the loved ones... I don't know but things are getting out of hands nowadays... I kept thinking about something i should not and because of the emptiness, i kept thinking about HIM... If i was to keep myself busy like before, i won't be thinking about him... But since my life is empty and quiet, he has been intruding my mind... He's nvr failed to intrude my mind but since i'm back from India, it's more often compared to before me going to India... But i've to let go of my past for the future... But i realise i should be strong, may be this is a challenge of life that i've to go thru... Running away may not solve the problem...

Apart from all this, i've been thinking of my oversea studies offer... I've got the course that i want but i've been thinking if IT is my industry.. HAIZ... my mind is confused and tired... But life is dead if i'm to stop thinking... Life is about going thru challenges but sometimes challenges make me to give up my life...

Hopefully, something that has no answer, will have an answer as soon as possible...

* LiFe TeAchEs mE soMeThiNg *

2006-08-26T02:26:00.000-07:00

Life teaches me something
About love
About relationship
About family
About everything
But experience is my teacher
Observation is my thoughts

Life is never perfect
Cos we’re never perfect
So do our life
Life makes people miserable
Life makes people happy
Life is enjoying
But depend on ourselves
Whether to make happiness ours

Life is joyful
When family is around
Loved ones surround you
But sorrow makes you grateful
To have what u own

2006-05-10T21:05:00.000-07:00

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Life after so long

2006-05-03T05:41:00.000-07:00

After being back from Chennai, many things around me have changed... I think my family is not dependent on me anymore like they used to be... And now, i think i feel awkward being ard back with my family... Anyway, things really changed like relationship between siblings and cousins... But i have to take them with maturity... They are busy than they used to be... I have to face it...
I think if i am to pursue my studies in Australia, it's gonna be nothing to me and my family anymore... I feel they are used not having me around anymore... shopping, outings, etc... I think they have their companion... I just have to get used to be alone.. meaning to be independent... get used to go shopping, etc alone...

Looking for jobs can be a headache... don't know which suit me or not... Another thing will be the salary that they are giving me... hmm, should distance be another factor for me to consider??? But i think having too many choices also can be a headache and if to has a limited choice, also can be a headache... i should say, decision-making is not to my liking...

Anyway, i'm just grateful to be back by my family sides... It's just that things changed and i'm still kind of not used to it... Sometimes, i'm just wondering is the decision of me going to chennai really make me feel the changes that are happening around me... Anyway, things done... I just have to live with it...

Just have to get myself busy with work once i start working so that i'm not going to think about all these... And i think i shud also start saving money for australia in case last minute i would like to go with Hajjar... Afterall, being alone in the overseas aloe with friend is not bad also... Just that i'm a sentimental and emotional so being apart from my family is really bad for me... But anyway, one day i'll gonna have my own family too... So maybe this is the time for me to have the foundation... hehe

I think i'm just sensitive with my surrounding that i'm feeling all these... Anyway, that's life and i'm moving on with it as i could... My family shud know that wherever i am, i'm always thinking of them... I'm just bad in expressing with words and action... But my heart will always be with them cos they are the cause of me going on with my life... Without them, i'm nobody and nowhere in this world...

=== Kehidupan ===

2006-03-06T00:46:00.000-08:00

Kehidupan bagai satu cubaan
Cubaan itu ku anggap satu nikmat
Nikmat pemberian Ilahi
Aku harus menghadapi
Walaupun sesukar mana pun
Aku tak akan mengalah
Kerna bila aku kalah
Syaitan sorak dengan kuat
Menandakan kejatuhan diriku sendiri

Selagi terdaya
Akan aku cuba menghadapi rintangan hidup
Sesusah manapun
Akan aku menanganinya
Sebagaimana hamba Allah melalui
Tidak akan aku tewas
Tidak akan aku menyerah kalah
Kerna aku adalah hamba Allah
KepadaNya aku kembali
KepadaNya aku dating
Seluruhnya, aku menyerah kepadaNya
Tapi bukan pada musuhNya…
Menyerah bermakna aku kalah...

=== Airmata ===

2006-03-06T00:37:00.000-08:00

Airmata memang murah..
Tapi siapa sangka
Itu senjata wanita
Mengapa wanita mempunyai airmata
Lebih dari lelaki
Wanita adalah lemah
Tapi wanita juga tabah

Ttitsan air dari mata
Mengalir di pipi bersebab
Sebab kecewa
Sebab gembira
Sebab takut
Sebab sedih
Mengapa ia mengalir dengan deras & sendiri
Kadangkala airmata terlalu senang mengalir

Airmata tidak bernilai bila ia jatuh
Airmata bagai pili
Apabila dibuka salurannya
Ia mengalir
Tapi bagi lelaki
Airmata seperti mutiara yang mahal
Ilahi telah mentakdirkan begitu
Kita redha akan ketentuannya

2006-02-26T20:02:00.000-08:00

We grow up together
We bath together
We sleep together
We walk together
We eat together
We share things together
We quarrel

As we’re older
More commitment we have
We are drifting apart
But we’re close in heart
Less time we have for each other
But when we’re together, time is most precious
Never know that we’re growing together
Even though age and time drifting us apart
Believe me you’re always in my heart

We share and laugh
We cry and console each other
We quarrel and forget
We talk and listen
How can I ever forget all that?
The memories that lay in my heart
The memories that always lay in my mind
Never doubt my sincerity
You are important in my life

Never know the relationship we have
Bond us even more than it is
The closeness is incredible
That it lays a mark in my heart
That will remain forever

PS: I’m feeling emotional ;p
But that’s what I feel
And wanting to tell the person

* Life *

2006-02-23T03:25:00.000-08:00

Life is unpredictable
You may be happy
You may be sad
You may feel whatever u want
But fate plays a part
And so are you
In making your own days …

Ponder over the past makes u sad
Ponder over the future makes u worried
Ponder over the day u are …
Makes u afraid to see tomorrow …
So, just let it be …
Let the life move on as it is
Ponder what is needed …

Life can be complicated
But life can be smooth
With loved ones around you …
They make you cry
They make you laugh
Also, they can make you be successful
They enriched your life
Cherish the moment
And be happy … ;)

... Great Weekend ...

2006-02-14T02:28:00.000-08:00

Last Saturday, we went to STB(Singapore Tourism Board)... We went there to get something from Shanon... And of course, my batteries... Hahaha... I tink i nid to say thx to Aaron for the batteries and Lihong for the idea... They're giving me those batteries as my advanced birthday present... hehehe... Batteries for birthday... and u noe how many are the amounts of batteries..? it's 12 pieces... 3 times of wat i've asked... Anyway, thx yar...

Also, we had our coffee, choco and cakes at the Cafe near the STB... Then made our way to a toy store... We've seen many toys and some other things... In the store, i and my itchy hands hold a pen and i don really know there's a shock viberator in the pen until i tried.. then i shouted but my voice was not that loud and only people who were near me were aware.. I was like shy oreadi... But then Lihong asked Angie wat happen... and naughty me asked Lihong to try the pen and Lihong's hand was also numb... She was somehow angry but she cool down... hehe... Sori Lihong i'm naughty... i realised that... haha.... After the store, we continued walking aimlessly around STB area cos we'll be going to have dinner with Shannon and Bridget... We had our dinner at the Japanese restaurant... It's a restaurant recommended by Shanon but somehow, we went there with Shanon n Bridget... hahaha a great nite spent...

Then on Sunday, We went to Marina Beach... At first, I've no plan in getting myself wet but after seeing the water at the beach i was somehow attracted to play the water and as a result i got myself wet... hahaha... Not only me but Lihong too... I really enjoyed myself that i also pulled others to the water till they were almost wet... not as wet as me and Lihong...
On the way back to the road, i've seen family spending their time at the beach... Somehow, i thought of my family in S'pore.. I think if they were there, i would have shared my enjoyment with them... But they were not there with me... ;(

Anyway, i bought myself a big n a small shell from the beach... It's as a memory that i've been to Marina Beach, second longest beach in the world... Great time spent there... ;)
But i think that i've another family in India... who..? of cos it's the girls here...
but sometime, i really feel that i'm gonna miss this trip when i'm back... and i don't regret coming here with them... i learnt and experience alot..

* Good News!!! *

2006-02-14T02:19:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah, I've passed my English 'O' level at last... I've attempted since my first year in Poly... However, i owed my success with many people.. Basically, people around me played many role in encouraging, supporting and helping me to pass my exam...

I'm grateful and thankful that i've passed... Actually, i would have give up last year but my family members(include aunt, uncle, cousin etc) told me not to and they told me that i should just give it a try last year again.. So i heed their advise... Sometime, u just have to listen to the given advise to be successful in life.. Especially advise from people who are older than you... Their advise may be somehow old and outdated but there could be advantages hid behind unknowingly...

Anyway, i thank God for the success...

..Future...

2006-02-09T22:19:00.000-08:00

This morning, after a conversation with Hajjar, it seemed that time really fly fast... All I can say is that, time never waits for anybody.. n I loss out many things in life... But i don't regret it...
Time can be a very important aspect when u're already starting to think of ur future... why? b'cos it's a matter when u're able to achieve the dream that u've dreamt of...

Time fly fast that i nvr know that i missed my secondary school life n my poly study days a lot... Everytime, i'm down... Happy moments i have in secondary school and poly with just revive in my mind... & i'll laugh and smil at how playful & naughty i was back then... Nobody would believe that but i should say please believe cos that's me... n i am still naughty but the playful is only sometimes... hahaha...

Back to my future... Future is something i'm always afraid of.. cos when i think of the future, i'll always think of the adult life i will be entering... And i know adult life is something which many people don wanna live with... if they can choose, they of course want to be teenagers than adult.. y is it so? cos life as an adult involves responsibility... response + ability = responsibility...
but unfortunately, that's the cycle of human life.. baby => child => teenage => adult => senior citizen... hmm, you can never run away from the human cycle...

But being me, i like to think too much of life b'cos i've an example to show and i've a life to lead at the same time.. so the life that i lead which eventually the example that i'll be showing to my younger siblings... and not forgetting, i want my parents to be proud too of the life that i choose to lead... To take care of me is not something easy for them... that's what i'm sure of... cos i'm naughty + playful... so, mama papa i'm sorry for the hardship you both have to go thru...

-= The past cannot be changed, the future is still in your power = -

Fire Fire Fire!!!

2006-02-09T00:24:00.000-08:00

I almost burn down the apartment i'm staying... And burnt everybody who's sharing the apartment with me... Haiz... Luckily it never happened... If not, many people will haunt me for sure... ehehe
and later i've sleeping difficulty cos of guilt...

Anyway, everybody survive and still alive... Nobody dead yet... Surviving...
But i've lost my hand hair... haiz... wat 2 do... burn down by the fire...
Can't help it.. ;(

***...soar like a butterfly...***

*** LifE ***